Never Say Never

"Never say never", said Toni in the movie of North face. This line stays fresh in my mind every now and then. He was a tough German alpinist and just like many other alpinists, he did have a wild ambition. To be the first to conquer the Eiger Mountain in Switzerland was the first thing he wished in his entire life. He wanted to stand and wave on the summit of the North Face so badly even though hiking that particular north wall was regarded as a suicide mission in the eyes of others. Through this movie, I see perseverance in him and his partner, Andi. It was almost impossible to climb that mountain with its rock so brittle and steep with ice lining on the surface especially during the winter where a snowstorm may hit you in the face without a blink! Yet, this is nothing to them. They only saw the fluorescence of glory illuminated on the summit. Their lives were hanged on the rope they brought, they felt the strength from it and there they set their foot towards the highest peak of Eiger! It was a bad timing I have to say, to have hiked in such a bad weather. Eiger hiking had claimed the lives of all and Eiger Mountain was their land of peace in the end. Arrival of snowstorm had swallowed and drowned them alive, slowly and cruelly, stiffened them to freeze and had taken them down one by one. They were so close to home, and yet they were only an inch from the grim reaper. His spirit was the one that I salute the most, to have never given up till his last breath. Despite his failure to conquer Eiger, he had won the heart and respect of all people and did his nation proud. His never-say-never spirit did not just vanished following his death, instead, he had wrote a whole new page of historical path to next alpinists from all around the world. "We will never forget you!"

As Long As My Feet Will Carry Me - another movie that brought the theme of perseverance to the climax! As the saying goes, "our fate is in our hand", this is so not true for Clement Forell as his fate lies on his own feet instead. He and his comrades were held hostage in Siberia during the war and his entire army force had been made forced-labours under surveillance of Soviet forces in an icy mine. An implicit land of ice is a perfect prison camp that bounds you tight where you can find no place to hide and no grass to eat within a wide radius. This remind me of a scene of how joyful Clement was the moment he had seen a small tree upon his escape. In such adverse condition of the mine, he can stand no more. What Clement did in that icy mining camp was merely a prison's break. Cool, isn't it? With one cohesive thought, he gathered all his strength from every fiber in his body, just to get the hell out of that place and walked back home. Yes, walk! In the middle of nowhere, he walked for three years all the way to Germany. It's unbelievable yet it's true. From the second he managed to escape from the mine, he had got no food, no water, no map, nothing but his own foot to carry on his journey to home. It got to have taken more than courage to do what he did. He was all alone and precious lives of those who had given him a helping hand were lost. Not a total loss for me as he finally make it home at the very least.

Perseverance to live, to be with the ones you love as if the only reason you are whole is the universal solvent to obstacles. In real life, what do we do if we are situated in our darkest time? Throwing a tantrum, having a cold feet or ready to back off? These are neither the best option for us. Taking the situation in reverse, what will Toni or Clement do if they were in your shoes? They will always say, "Never say never!"

Patience

Good riddance! I have upgraded my level of patience in this stressing few weeks. We could have all gone crazy, scratching our heads, feel like every fiber in our cells struggling for a way out when we are under slightly bigger driving force called pressure. There are pros and cons as in pressure, just the matter of whether you can make the best out of it. Beat it or get beaten! That's the essential element to survive. And this is so true for every living thing on earth.

I could have been ran away as in those time in the past. But now, I rather pay a little bit more patience to figure and sort things out. "Nothing is impossible", that's what I have been always telling myself. If anyone on earth can do it, there is no way I am going to back off in the slightest chance! Having patience literally means more time to calm down our fussy mind, so that rational is what we get next, to be able to make a wise decision for our dearly problems. As I say, emotion is the hardest thing to control, so that makes being patience is not without difficulties.

The very first move to patience is to spare a clear thought for yourself in the very first place. Well, this might not work well for you as in me, but that's what I think. Then take the rest moves personally cause it is personal! Every person has their own way of handling problems. We can be a better person in this world and having patience is the best antidote to resentment.

BE BETTER. BE PATIENT! What says you?

Stress

Crap! I am totally not in control! Need more EQ in handling my emotion. Set aside the loads of assignments and report together with TESTS, my mood has gone wild too, driving me insane. I gets grumpy with my friends and it drives me cranky as if I can't hold it any longer and just going to burst. A lot of stuffs happened and it's pretty hard to lay it all straight here. Many of the small pieces make whole.

Well, the solution for myself:
Time is the best antidote to calm myself down. Plus a solely private time for me to be behave--REVISIONS. Think nothing but my tasks on hand.

Quarantine period: 2 days.
Expected result: Get better control of my emotion.
Reminder: BEHAVE, BEHAVE and BEHAVE!

Gratitute

A million thanks to the K10 bus driver for keeping my glasses safe instead of throwing to a rubbish bin like anyone else in this world will do. What a kind soul! He showed it to me once I knocked on his door and asked for it. Straight away, it drew a smile on my face the moment I saw he held my glasses in his hand. Lucky me!!!! Very lucky indeed, to have guess the right place and right bus my spectacles would be. I thought I won't stand a chance to see it again, not unless I do some "mojo" stuff to pinpoint its whereabouts.

Hence, it would be my utmost honour and pleasure to dedicate my compliment to the anonymous kind bus driver. Thanks so much for giving it back to a reckless owner like me. Haha.. Everyone asked me why was it ended up in the bus. I couldn't figure it out earlier though until I got a second tiny flash back of "dropped bag" scene. Not at all I could have never imagine it could end up there. Yet, it is right there, the never-would-be place I thought.

I am grateful~~

Remorse

Another thing lost at my hand. Seriously, I have no one to be blamed but myself. I lost count of how many things I could have lost since the day I was born. Only this time it was my newly bought pair of glasses. Before that, I left my keys. It was pretty much the same, just that I have found my keys and I found no sign of my glasses. Clumsy? Blur? That's me! I prayed, prayed and prayed so as it appeared right before me. How I wished time could be twisted and I would never ever do the same mistake for the second time, and how I wished it never happened. I am totally in remorse for not taken good care of my own things well enough.

Yeap, no point regret it if I didn't learn from this. I will take a lesson out of this careless act of mine. I will have it seared in my mind. Mei May, don't you dare lose another thing, whatever it takes, just stay ALERT!!!