过去的就让它过去

光阴似箭,
当一切都已尘埃落定,
当一切都已成定局,
仿佛一切都无法回头,
又何必停留于过去,
何必念念不忘?

既已过去,
莫让它成为迈向成功的绊脚石,
不留念,
不挽留,
不后悔...

既来之,则安之;
活在当下,
活得精彩,
过去的就随它过去...

Quality Time on Das Boot

Owing to the requirement of the German language course, I thereby made my step for the movie entitled "Das Boot". The fact is, I love watching movies, they are my favourite activity and I regarded it as a part of myself. I never closed my eyelids or attempted to nor feeling sleepy in the middle of a movie. Nevertheless, "Das Boot" had opened a whole new page and broke a new record in my very own book of history. For the first time, I feel sleepy. Mainly due to boring conversations inside the submarine and less actions and climax.

Boring as it was, I couldn't say it did not interest me entirely. At some points, I did enjoy watching war-film. The movie 99% focused on a submarine U--(forgot what code)back in the world-war-II with 50 members in it. My first thought - submarine should be huge. My thought was wrong for the submarine's interior was so narrow only a person could pass by. Second, those soldiers were meant to be tightly bounded to discipline as many others normal people would share this same thought with me. Singing, dancing, mocking, playing were their ways to kill time instead. But not until problems arised. They were serious and stern with those darkened faces of theirs. Play hard, work hard.

Forgot to mention the main factor contributing to my sleepy condition. The film itself took me 5 hours sitting motionless inside the chill room keeping my pupils dilated long enough to an exhausted state. Of course, there was a short break in between. But still, it was really BORING to watch the same film for 5 hours with less than 5% of climax and actions.

Somehow, I was impressed by how they could possibly make seriously damaged parts back to functionality in such an adverse condition. The psychological pressure itself could kill a person by bursting his head off. They worked in a team and as a whole, taking instructions with no single question asked. They were excellence in professionalism - SOLDIER.

Though, I didn't like the ending. By the time they made their way back to their homeland, so close to their family; and there they got attacked and bombed. Countless were dead. That's how it ended. Must had taken decades of bad luck to have this kind of situation I thought.

These were what crossed my mind after 5 hours quality time in the theater.

My theory of life - Vol. 2

This chapter I am so going to write a review of self reflection. Things I learned and those little negative things that have long embedded deep down my self-conscious mind I have just deciphered into the category of blurness. Blurness has brought errors and damages out of my pure stupidity.

No matter where I stand, I have a limited range of vision or you should say low alert. I am always unaware of things happening around me or else happened to be the last one to catch up the info. My latest news received have never been the latest as it should be in the first place. So, I may wonder how did I get along with my life before. Owing to my shortcircuit antenna adapted right on top of me, I have a high dependancy on manually transmitted info via friends networking in compensation to what I lack of. Their words turn out to be more accountable and trustworthy somehow in some way. This is why I'm glad to have good friends around me and I do think I'm blessed with all the best. Hehe..

Given the help from my dear friends, I don't take that as granted as much as I cherish every single one of them. Friend as well as trust is not granted but earned. Earning it has every thing to do with sincerity that comes as the pioneer basis.

I'm always helpless in tackling my blurness syndrome and being tactful will be the top of most wanted character list of mine. I have spared some thought in line with the solution to this or maybe not a total cure but at least will do some improvement to a certain degree.

In order to catch up the status and as well updating my current improvement progress, I have signed myself a medical report card which in this case a personal notebook that carries the details of mine.

My wish of December - May all memories remain intact with me.

Cleaning in progress

"Do not disturb", that's the words I put on my face by the time I rummage across my old stuffs as well as my luggage. There are too many things to be reorganized and yet to be done till this day. I need a plan, a well laid out plan to carry out this top most difficult task. Cleaning - the last thing I want to do on earth, most of the time being able to find excuses to pull myself out of this troublesome work. Cleaning simply means trouble to me. A big big trouble that I would avoid at any chance.

However, there is no longer any excuse for me as the date on the calendar turns blue indicating holidays. Errr.... where to start? This question keep on popping in my head for a long while until I could pinpoint the first thing to clean -- my desk. Haha... my desk, covered with pile of dusk and messed up. My very first step - Categorizing the wanted and unwanted stuffs. In the end, I dispose nearly half of my stuffs which equally likely makes 3 bags fulled of rubbishes ended up in trashcan. Throw, throw, throw. Everything not in use just throw cause I have no place to keep them while more is coming. So, 1 day spent!

Next, my lecture notes and tutorials and books. I tag them nicely and label them. Aren't I tidy??? Not so messy as I am claimed to be, my friends! I arrange them nicely too! Can't believe I can make it seriously.

Next thing in line would be my wardrobe and my laptop. Oops, don't forget my shoes as well. Everything just perfectly in queue.

Nicely done!!! Thumbs up! Don't you think so?

Prison Break

This morning, I woke up with a loaded head where you could find zero strand of easiness in it. Dark circles under my eyes, dehydrated face, furrowed eyes and an extensive stress look made a hideous me.

This moment, I couldn't find a word to describe the sense of relaxation that ran through the nerves all over my body. The burden was out of my shoulder the second I handled that piece of sheet to the examiner. How glad!!! The exhaustion and tiredness vanished together with the last count of exam time.

A break finally arrived at my doorstep which set me free to the open air. The air is fresher, the wind is soothing and everything has never been felt so right at this time. This is the end of my fifth semester bringing about the beginning of my free days! Taking a deep breath, figure out what I want to do next is exhilarating! Well, I have just hang out with my dear coursemates for supper simply to recharge our all-too-drained system. Everyone wears a big wide smile, all natural and happiness swells.

What's coming up next is yet to be planned...

It has been a long long night. Tonight, I can pretty sure I can sleep well. No more insomnia!
SWEET DREAM~

Swing

It had been quite a long time since the last time I went to a playground. Swing is always my all time favourite. Despite my age, I would still leap onto the swing and swung up to the sky ignoring all the weird staring around me. I enjoyed swinging that much was not due to my childish nature though it existed. It was merely because I very much enjoyed the feel of freedom, eyes locked on the clouds, puzzled into various enormous objects that I could ever imagined. There were plenty of stuffs that I could picture through which I can wear a smile upon. Teddy, pirate ship, polar bear, Mickey, and so much more hanging steadily in the sky until some nasty strong wind altered their shapes into something else. They transformed and kept on changing with time gave me a sense of freedom. They were so far beyond reach, yet I could sense their presence just next to me, with eyelids closed, I could feel them, touch them and even taste them.

Wind, was another element that soothed every inch of my feeling on the swing. It whipped my face, not harshly but gently touched when I swung forward. Like a pendulum, it moved swiftly and smoothly forward and backward so many times that I lost count of it. The wind was the one that accounted for my tangle and messy hair each ride I had taken. My hairs shuffled at the time it shoved right past my straight hairs, making them fluffy on movement. Yes, a new hair style I got from the saloon of nature!

The wind was colder in the starry night. It was calmer than the daylight time. It was a wonderful moment to have a peaceful ride. The sky was tinted with infinite blinking and shining stars, and if I was lucky enough, I would see a glowing moon right besides them, like a mother guarding on her children. While swinging, I felt for once that I could catch them. I stared into the static stars tilted in the dark sky, swinging as hard as I could as to swing all the bad mood away emptying and clearing my little cell of thought. It was my way of throwing and discharging all the stress accumulated in the tiny vessel of mine that could hold no more. Guess the sky is the biggest garbage bin that I have got on earth.

Swing has brought countless joy and fun to me during my childhood. It is still my best company till this day.

Swing - The closest thing I had as flying.

A new vocabulary "Stunner"

The word "stunner" has opened a new page in the KPM's dictionary, depicted from a KPM member. He is the father of stunner, introducing and teaching us how to be a stunner. We are trained as we are stunned. No one can be a stunner without being stunned. There is a wide coverage inside this term "stunner" which generally includes speaking lame jokes(cold or hot), sinister, and capable of silencing others.

From the time joining into this fantastic KPM family as pure as a white paper, I am now fully equipped with the stunning skill I needed to graduate from the KPM. Well, perhaps not fully, at least 70% as well will do. Though this brand new word is not recognized universal nor international, it is indeed a powerful communication tool among the KPM's!

Stunning has now replaced the ordinary scolding which we're used to apply to those we're angry with. No harsh words needed nor to speak in a heavy tone or deafening voice. Some "stun" words may just kill your opponent in no time. So, what's the need to be mad? Just "stun" with a smiling face!

Of course, "stun" is very flexible and multi-functional. It is a laugh creator equipment. Laughter comes along with all the "stun" sentences when put into some situation under circumstances. For all KPMs, you surely understand what I practically mean here.

There is a conditional probability for "stun" to take place. There must always be a subject to "stun". A victim is a more accurate word to use. And to all stunners, you're the prey! Subjects are being tossed around in a blink. The fun in it: We all laugh with joy!

Caution:
Bad consequences may arise together with the "stun" for some may get cranky over the issue. So, this makes playing "stun" exactly the same like playing fire. Do bring along the fire extinguisher as the precaution.

This is me speaking on behalf of the father of stunner - Rhasta

My theory of life - vol 1

When I'm down, I'd like to be alone occupying myself with endless tasks and works without being reminded of what causing it. It's just an automated control mode being switched on once the threshold level in my system is triggered. I don't do much talking until I feel like to talk. Better shut up and do my work quietly. Better be constructive than destructive. A healthier way in resolving emotional problems. Sometimes, we are not given much options in life but we do given time to spare a thought on a decision or a choice to make. The realm of life is the part we walk through the up and down and the essence extracted is the beauty in it. There is no guarantee our paths are more likely to be the same nor smooth. What's the fun in it if that's the case?

Our environment may put a stone in our paths but it can't touch our will, much less our determination. Path is shaped, bit by bit, rather than set. And then it is changeable, anytime. Fear not to make a change or there will be no improvement at any chance.

Resistance to change is in our nature as turbulence in equilibrium state is exactly what we're afraid of. However, how can a summit be achieved without the jolt that drives towards the peak? Fear does exist in every human nature but it doesn't mean it can't be tamed. If only if you have strong will against the dark side of yours, you can turn impossible to possible. Taking the situation in reverse, if you permit your weakness driving the steel, anything possible will end as an impossible mission, any dim hope will lead to an dead end.

Even drown in sadness, I'd make it the source of strength as it makes me tougher in the future. Grateful that it is the vaccine jab that boosts my mentality to a higher level. It won't take long for the pricking pain to fade away for I'll be ready the next time it invades.

Constituent of strength is The Pain.

Pesta Tanglung 2010

Though late beyond the real date, it still better be late than never. The party of the mooncake festival was a huge success special thanks to the united effort of all members.

It was crowded with people wandering around while I was busy rolling the dough. I was part of the mooncake-making-and-sell on the spot team. We prepare, we made, and we sell. We were surrounded by a crowd of curious visitors with eyes fixed on what we were doing by the time we laid our hands on the powder. Mooncake-making was the one of the many exhibitions being held for this very meaningful festive of the year.

Performances were going perfect on schedule as it was planned. There were only a few that I could catch a glimpse over my task on hand which were the diabolo, dances, drum and drama. While the others were happy enjoying the show, sweats were all over me squeezed out drop by drop wetting my cloth considering the fact that it took quite an amount of physical energy to make a mooncake. Given my first attempt in this whole new trial, the whole process was not as easy as it seemed. It was all circling on the right skill of the maker from the beginning of mixing the ingredients to the end of modeling. The products of our sweaty hard work may not be in line with the those branded mooncakes on the shelf. It was nevertheless freshness guaranteed and 100% FOP (free of preservatives). Allow me to brag here, it taste finger licking good for me. Haha... The proof was we managed to clear all the stocks on sale with the last few pieces shared among our members. KPM rocks!!!

It was not over yet until we cheered for all our good work!
A union day that united us - it fits the main purpose of the mooncake festival itself!

Specially dedicated to ZEA:
Being the main chef of the day was never easy, not to mention the lack of bit here and there. Yet, you have make it the simplest thing I have seen on earth. Your teaching-while-making lesson is very much appreciated and will be remembered. What we have learnt today, it's on you!
-THANK YOU-

Laziness-Feel it, be it~

Laziness-the most unwanted element in a person's head. I would rather take it the other way round. Looking deep into it, it might not be such a nuisance sometimes. It could be contagious, if only we couldn't get control of our primary mindset and let it get control of us instead. Indeed, how bad could it be, if it infiltrates you at the right time and you're happened to feel it just right to be in you at the very moment?

Holidays seem the best moment to be lazy and I just feel right to let it overwhelms me and not to have any workload get into a single nerve of me at the very least. I let it be, cause I know I would not going to have it, to feel it after 2 weeks time. Thus, I am in no better position than now to be a lazy me. 2 weeks, a perfect timing that I have set for the all-too-exhausted brain of mine to cash in some credits of vacation for a little bit taste of rejuvenation. It is merely a precaution step to ensure my brain does not exceed its yield stress point. Soaking myself with a totally I-think-better sensation starting last Friday, and so far I do enjoy every taste of it! I shall say, you should get a taste yourself too!

This is just the beginning, and god knows how lazy I could be? I could care no more, enjoy and enjoy cause every single minute counts and I wouldn't let it to waste. Appreciate this lazy moment of my life and get it over 2 weeks after! The feel is surely different and the difference it is that adds colours to my hectic student life.

So, let's feel it and Be it~

Never Say Never

"Never say never", said Toni in the movie of North face. This line stays fresh in my mind every now and then. He was a tough German alpinist and just like many other alpinists, he did have a wild ambition. To be the first to conquer the Eiger Mountain in Switzerland was the first thing he wished in his entire life. He wanted to stand and wave on the summit of the North Face so badly even though hiking that particular north wall was regarded as a suicide mission in the eyes of others. Through this movie, I see perseverance in him and his partner, Andi. It was almost impossible to climb that mountain with its rock so brittle and steep with ice lining on the surface especially during the winter where a snowstorm may hit you in the face without a blink! Yet, this is nothing to them. They only saw the fluorescence of glory illuminated on the summit. Their lives were hanged on the rope they brought, they felt the strength from it and there they set their foot towards the highest peak of Eiger! It was a bad timing I have to say, to have hiked in such a bad weather. Eiger hiking had claimed the lives of all and Eiger Mountain was their land of peace in the end. Arrival of snowstorm had swallowed and drowned them alive, slowly and cruelly, stiffened them to freeze and had taken them down one by one. They were so close to home, and yet they were only an inch from the grim reaper. His spirit was the one that I salute the most, to have never given up till his last breath. Despite his failure to conquer Eiger, he had won the heart and respect of all people and did his nation proud. His never-say-never spirit did not just vanished following his death, instead, he had wrote a whole new page of historical path to next alpinists from all around the world. "We will never forget you!"

As Long As My Feet Will Carry Me - another movie that brought the theme of perseverance to the climax! As the saying goes, "our fate is in our hand", this is so not true for Clement Forell as his fate lies on his own feet instead. He and his comrades were held hostage in Siberia during the war and his entire army force had been made forced-labours under surveillance of Soviet forces in an icy mine. An implicit land of ice is a perfect prison camp that bounds you tight where you can find no place to hide and no grass to eat within a wide radius. This remind me of a scene of how joyful Clement was the moment he had seen a small tree upon his escape. In such adverse condition of the mine, he can stand no more. What Clement did in that icy mining camp was merely a prison's break. Cool, isn't it? With one cohesive thought, he gathered all his strength from every fiber in his body, just to get the hell out of that place and walked back home. Yes, walk! In the middle of nowhere, he walked for three years all the way to Germany. It's unbelievable yet it's true. From the second he managed to escape from the mine, he had got no food, no water, no map, nothing but his own foot to carry on his journey to home. It got to have taken more than courage to do what he did. He was all alone and precious lives of those who had given him a helping hand were lost. Not a total loss for me as he finally make it home at the very least.

Perseverance to live, to be with the ones you love as if the only reason you are whole is the universal solvent to obstacles. In real life, what do we do if we are situated in our darkest time? Throwing a tantrum, having a cold feet or ready to back off? These are neither the best option for us. Taking the situation in reverse, what will Toni or Clement do if they were in your shoes? They will always say, "Never say never!"

Patience

Good riddance! I have upgraded my level of patience in this stressing few weeks. We could have all gone crazy, scratching our heads, feel like every fiber in our cells struggling for a way out when we are under slightly bigger driving force called pressure. There are pros and cons as in pressure, just the matter of whether you can make the best out of it. Beat it or get beaten! That's the essential element to survive. And this is so true for every living thing on earth.

I could have been ran away as in those time in the past. But now, I rather pay a little bit more patience to figure and sort things out. "Nothing is impossible", that's what I have been always telling myself. If anyone on earth can do it, there is no way I am going to back off in the slightest chance! Having patience literally means more time to calm down our fussy mind, so that rational is what we get next, to be able to make a wise decision for our dearly problems. As I say, emotion is the hardest thing to control, so that makes being patience is not without difficulties.

The very first move to patience is to spare a clear thought for yourself in the very first place. Well, this might not work well for you as in me, but that's what I think. Then take the rest moves personally cause it is personal! Every person has their own way of handling problems. We can be a better person in this world and having patience is the best antidote to resentment.

BE BETTER. BE PATIENT! What says you?

Stress

Crap! I am totally not in control! Need more EQ in handling my emotion. Set aside the loads of assignments and report together with TESTS, my mood has gone wild too, driving me insane. I gets grumpy with my friends and it drives me cranky as if I can't hold it any longer and just going to burst. A lot of stuffs happened and it's pretty hard to lay it all straight here. Many of the small pieces make whole.

Well, the solution for myself:
Time is the best antidote to calm myself down. Plus a solely private time for me to be behave--REVISIONS. Think nothing but my tasks on hand.

Quarantine period: 2 days.
Expected result: Get better control of my emotion.
Reminder: BEHAVE, BEHAVE and BEHAVE!

Gratitute

A million thanks to the K10 bus driver for keeping my glasses safe instead of throwing to a rubbish bin like anyone else in this world will do. What a kind soul! He showed it to me once I knocked on his door and asked for it. Straight away, it drew a smile on my face the moment I saw he held my glasses in his hand. Lucky me!!!! Very lucky indeed, to have guess the right place and right bus my spectacles would be. I thought I won't stand a chance to see it again, not unless I do some "mojo" stuff to pinpoint its whereabouts.

Hence, it would be my utmost honour and pleasure to dedicate my compliment to the anonymous kind bus driver. Thanks so much for giving it back to a reckless owner like me. Haha.. Everyone asked me why was it ended up in the bus. I couldn't figure it out earlier though until I got a second tiny flash back of "dropped bag" scene. Not at all I could have never imagine it could end up there. Yet, it is right there, the never-would-be place I thought.

I am grateful~~

Remorse

Another thing lost at my hand. Seriously, I have no one to be blamed but myself. I lost count of how many things I could have lost since the day I was born. Only this time it was my newly bought pair of glasses. Before that, I left my keys. It was pretty much the same, just that I have found my keys and I found no sign of my glasses. Clumsy? Blur? That's me! I prayed, prayed and prayed so as it appeared right before me. How I wished time could be twisted and I would never ever do the same mistake for the second time, and how I wished it never happened. I am totally in remorse for not taken good care of my own things well enough.

Yeap, no point regret it if I didn't learn from this. I will take a lesson out of this careless act of mine. I will have it seared in my mind. Mei May, don't you dare lose another thing, whatever it takes, just stay ALERT!!!

The final week of my holidays

Finally I got the time for blog. I'm so overwhelmed with stuffs and preparations. So many things to do. Of all the things that I hated most, cleaning and arranging messy stuffs make me snaky all the time. Ok... Let's keep this simple.

2 JUL FRI: I joined a journey to the Broga Hill together with my dear friends in a group of 10. We woke up early in the morning (I didn't sleep for whole night actually) and set our feet there at 5.30am. I was gasping for air in the middle of the trail due to my poor stamina. Hiking is surely an mission impossible for me and would be the last thing on my list. Nevertheless, I did given it a try! It's dark. It's way too dark in the early morning. Can't even see the trail clearly. I could feel how to walk in blind! Luckily we brought torches, focusing the light on the route ahead. Still, I found it difficult to find a way through this. Another thing about me. I am clumsy all the time, giving the fact that I always trip over something. So, I did really focusing very very hard trying to keep my eyes fixed on the route ahead, to avoid any incident. in the end, we did made ourselves through the four peaks and watched the sunrise. Our memorable moments were taken down. This produced plenty of funny photos showing our funny acts. That's it! The first and the last time I set foot in Broga. Won't be dare to have another tryout.

3 & 4 JUL SAT & SUN: Nothing else except WORK.

5 JUL MON: House Keeping. My room keeping work to be exact.

6 JUL TUE: Lucky me! To have fall sick. Whole day laying on couch and sleep.

7 JUL WED: Helping my dad to do some documents stuff. And had a style change for my hair. It's CURLED now! A medium one at shoulder length.

8 JUL THU: Had my awaited-for-too-long movie "Eclipse" in cinema with my sis. This was the best episode of all three I have watched. More actions on screen actually made it a more interesting movie to watch. The story from the book was well laid out and the pre-life of the Rosalie and Jasper were explained too, including the ancient story of the werewolf tribe. You will not regret watching this!

9 JUL FRI: Had my last violin class, tuition and my desk cleaning in progressssss.......

10 JUL SAT: Shopping for foods, shoes, accessories in Tesco for my upcoming semester purpose. Had a steamboat dinner with my family and neighbours. Haha... Feel more like a farewell party for me, my last big meal.

11 JUL SUN: Finally, the time has came to get back to my hostel. As usual, last minute packing! It was a rush. No time to breath. Once opened up the door, what I could say was OMG! My eyes locked on the dirt and dusts on floor. It was like no one lived here for years. My mind went blank, didn't know where to begin. It got to take hours to keep this hell cell look like a ROOM. Special thanks to my beloved mum and sis, for giving out their hands in this. I have to admit I am so hate to do cleaning stuff, never been good at it. Would take the speed of twice the others, way lag behind. All I inhaled was dust.... Ohw.... really awful for me, especially when I have sensitive nostrils. Sneezing!!!

My roommate haven't shown herself since the first day I have been here. Looking forward to meeting her officially.

Last day of work

Today I have gone through the last day of my work in preparation of my whole new sem. Work is tiring and drains everything out of me. Yet, I feel exciting cause it is going to over very soon. I have met and known no short of new friends upon working. Some are even from the same high school before. Fun is never less! Working along with friends is the only thing that cheers me up and I am actually having fun while working! Aha! It draws a smile on my face!

Just an hour before the end of my day, I surprisingly meet See Hoe! He sees and greets me at first. Lucky me, to have met him here. We have a five minutes chat before I go on with my work. The best damn thing of my work: Get to know more friends and learn to communicate with different type of peoples. The down part: My legs are in pain and exhausting after long hour-standing, being drained out physically and mentally.

All in all, it is a nice and enlightening experience.

Coming up next: Broga hill and photosssss... too tired to upload right now. Tomorrow it is.

Love Rainy Night

I feel so good right now. It's raining outside. The drizzling simply comforts and brings up my mood, regardless of whatever I am doing. Sleep? watch drama? Reading? Whatever it is, I am feeling really good!

The best activity of the night: Drama together with a cup of hot Milo. Taking a few sips and enjoy the show. I could be in heaven. No stress, no worries, no.... nothing except enjoying this very moment. Though simple but it is enough for me to chill. It could be bad to health for staying up late. But it's simply irresistible. Nice place, nice time make a nice moment.

Life is simple and simple life means happiness. Easy to say, easy to do, just the matter of how you think...

The Up and Down

Many things happened since the last time I checked in. Hmm... So much to list down here.

First of all, I have got myself a part time job for this holiday which ran swiftly for god sake. This kept me occupied while earning some side income for own expenditures. And since it was a holiday, I followed my family for a trip to Cameron Highland to inhale some fresh air while letting my muscles to rehabilitate. It was really relaxing to be there, considering the fact that I am away from the hustle and bustle town of mine.

Next, there was no short of gatherings with my long time no see-friends. Librarians dinner was the first gathering held ever, giving the idea thrown by 2 of my friends. During the steamboat dinner, I have got the most updated info about my dear friends especially knowing their whereabouts and their recent activities. The next gathering went to the gossip gang which took place at the look out point. As usual, we have a dinner followed up by the chit chatting session. The youngest of our gang, wai kuan have it all well planned for the reporting session. What else could I say?? Only thumbs up! According to her schedule, we talked about our study first, followed by work, relationship... ... However, our discussion was interrupted by a sudden haze of smoke from the front table, forcing us to change another table. Then our stories continued........

My birthday: celebrated earlier together with my family and my dearest god mother. Really grateful that she was willing to come over far from Bangsar to Cheras. We have a nice time out!
A visit from gossip gang on that day surprised me. They have brought my favourite cake and there I made my wishes of the year.

A holiday without shopping: That's NOT ME! haha... My sis and I spent a whole day to replenish my clothing and some accessories.

The only down part of my holiday was the touch-n-go of the newborn puppies. They were so cute and it hurt me to see them die one by one. I could say the survival rate is totally zero. It only took 1 month for them to disappear from my eye sight. Poor thing. Feel so sorry for their deaths and even bad after the time that I have spent for them, took care of them, bathed them...
May they live happily in another world.

The rest of my time was on dramas and novels and get ready for a whole new sem.

The only question that I am so craved to know: Who's my next roommate of the year??? with the lucky room number 349.

Mayhem

I always have problem communicating with people, either they don't get mine or I don't get theirs. But there will be no problem if questions were asked, I suppose. Instead, keeping to themselves and nodding their heads give me wrong ideas when I take it as a yes. As a result, work are not 'up to standard' and it overloads me just to make it up to them. Then I start to question myself, am I so hard to be understood? Or did I make it clear to them? Or did I convey the message wrongly? There are no answers figured out yet so far.

I understand that group work requires additional patience, time, cooperation and much more. Well, I always try my best to compromise with others, though I may get overreacted to lead sometimes. I hate to face the situation where everyone keeps quiet and no respond is given out. It is a waste of time and there will be no improvement in the progress.

I admit that I don't usually get along well with normal friends. Only close friends that I can get used with and I always shield myself to those that fall in the range of 'outside close friend region'. That probably makes me look a few times more stern and serious while I talk. I wonder if they are scared of me. Or is it the speed of my talking that makes them confuse and vague? I think the possibility is quite low for this as I speak with normal speed when I talk to people personally instead of publicly.

Turn out things that ought to be done becomes totally a mess. Now, I couldn't pinpoint where to begin and how to correct things to get them back to it's route. We can never make everyone around us happy or satisfy with us, but we shall not to worry as long as we hold on good attitude as our principle. Don't be afraid, stay tough to fix things up! I wish... ...